Gabourey Sidibe is opening up about her struggles with psychological well being and says they started at a younger age.
The Empire star joined Taraji P. Henson on her Fb Watch present Peace of Mind with Taraji, and says she first developed melancholy rising up, which snowballed into nervousness and ultimately Bulimia.
“I used to be so embarrassed, and I hated crying a lot, I hated it,” Sidibe instructed Henson and co-host Tracie Jenkins on Monday’s episode (January 18).
Sidibe says that whereas in school she stopped consuming for days at a time, and what she did eat she would then throw up. She says the consuming dysfunction was a “button” that might cease her from crying.
“And on high of that, individuals had been like, ‘You are trying good.’ So I am like, why would I cease? Like, that is dope, in a manner,” she stated, calling it a “self-defense mechanism.”
Sidibe continued: “That is what bulimia was for me. It wasn’t about dropping pounds, it wasn’t about controlling my urge for food. It really was about the way it stopped me from crying.”
Any management Sidibe thought she did have was only a failed masks for her issues.
“It felt like I used to be controlling my feelings — I used to be not, I used to be uncontrolled. I used to be getting worse,” she stated. “Being depressed is one factor, in case you add an consuming dysfunction on high of that, that is an entire different monster you need to struggle.”
Watch Gabourey Sidibe speak about her bout with melancholy here.